It's definitely hormones. Too many of them, if you ask me!
Little things that mildly amuse or irritate me (depending upon whom is saying/writing things to me) can set my teeth on edge. It's particularly difficult to discern in this kind of medium the "tone" (again, with the "tone", Sarah!). When I am being more rational (I'm never completely rational, I don't think), I take things in stride and I don't overreact. However, the past few months, I've been more a nutter than ever over the tiniest of things.
I just want to say: I am so sorry. If I come across as ridiculously impatient or unusually out of sorts, I am so sorry. I can help this behaviour; I know that I have a choice! Some time I slip. Please forgive me.
I have more issues on Facebook than here, of course, but some of you are my friends on FB as well. So, you have likely read my idiocy. I try and keep it real and honest all of the time. I un-friended some people in a whirlwind of being upset at them . . . and it was wrong. I should just delete what they say and move on; say a prayer. It is not easy for me to do with these old woman surging hormones. I cannot understand it, but that is what it is! No wonder people make such fun of menopausal women. I believe I am in peri-menopause (which can last what seems ages when you're in it, but which is anywhere from 5-10 years - which, at my age is lightning fast at times). Not fast enough when I'm waking in the night drenched in sweat from an internal fire bath! Yes, I've had done three times since last year.
Please just be patient with this tottering old fool of a lady . . . as I come to slippery grips with my aging.
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Oh, I am right there with you!! The hot flashes make me wake up whether I want to or not...and go all day long as well. As to the emotional symptoms, I am the poster child for PMS. You could set a clock by my moods. I can keep that somewhat under control with Sarafem, but it's still a little tough if I don't time things right.
I also find that when my mood is low I feel like quitting stuff--stuff that I ordinarily enjoy. I have to keep telling myself that I cannot quit "this week."
(And unfortunately, even though I had a hysterectomy last year, I still have all this fun because my 1 1/2 ovaries still work. Woohoo...)
Too bad a good ol'fashioned beer doesn't take off the edge. Mello the ol'lady out.
Sounds like there are some battles going on over at FB?????
CANNOT let what other people say and do get to you. There is so much yuck out there right now. I am always on my knees.
pray for happy days!
Wow Sarah. Well put. I'm right there with you, kiddo.
I cheated, as you know, and got myself on Estrace about 5 years ago - no more hot flashes.
I wasn't going to do that route, but I got so damn sick of having hot flashes - I counted one day - in the course of an hour I had something like 10.
And in the mid of winter here, when you're grocery shopping with a flippin' eskimo suit on and have one - well - I considered shopping with a bathing suit underneath the eskimo suit to make it easier to cool off when I unzipped the thing.
And moods? Gee willickers - I'm on the chemical train for that one too - zoloft.
Life is too short to me to worry so much about chemicals.
Hang in there o'honest babe.
Cheers!
Alexa
I'm just going to say I am praying for you! :)
Well, I'm totally scandalized. Shocked, in fact. Because I NEVER get like that. Ever....
Except that time a couple months ago when I went crazy and kicked a big toy in anger and stupidity... and broke my toe. That was the ONLY time though.
Except maybe that ONE other time. But that's it.
(I'm lying. You are lovely and normal. Your humility is wonderful. Continued prayers coming your way.) :)
Barb, exactly! Same here! I want to quit things: FB, blogging, going out with friends, teaching CCD, doing things, even praying (gasp!!!). I just want to cop on before I hurt someone, you know? I can handle embarrassing myself - but hurting others? not so much!
Totally feelin' ya on the hormone, trip, girl! I really hate how they make me a monster for a week out of the month (sometimes more!).
LOVE the "stroking my inflated ego" and "twit who wants your comments" tags... I was thinking of stealing them, but then again... no one leaves comments for me to read it! *sniffle, sniffle*
I think it might be the season, though I know you don't get seasons so much there in Hawaii. I am just not coping well with anything in my life now, though I probably have hormone issues as well. One should not have hormones and teens at the same time -- a formula for fireworks!
PS I quit FB quite a while ago because I admitted I had no tolerance for the kind of stupidity that goes on there.
Just reading this one, Sarah...ah...thanks for your honesty and humbleness. Gosh, isn't it pretty evident SO MANY of us are going through something or the other with this stuff. I had no idea. I thought most of it would be over (according to one book) around a year or so after the last period...NOT. I have had all of my hot flashed AFTER the fact..night sweats...almost every night, lately, but I do notice more if I have some stress or big changes in the day, have a glass of wine, or don't get some decent exercise. My mood swings awhile back, were nothing short of insane and my family was sick of me, not that they were pearly white and innocent of any grouchiness or wrongdoing, themselves..so much more is expected of the "spirit" of the female, the mother, etc...yet, sometimes it all should cause others to think of what THEY can do to help ease some of this for us, you know? Anywhooooo, we can try to be here for one another. Sometimes I'll type something find it later and delete it...because often the next day, I will see things in another way..go figure! Love ya, girlie Q! :)
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